I've been challenged up the wazoo spiritually in the past few months. Mostly because I've totally been living outside the "christian bubble" ....My biggest constraint in Kingston was always TIME. I never had enough time in the day to study, time to be with my Christian friends in fellowship, time to minister to my non-Christian friends in evangelism, not to mention time to myself and God. It was a constant struggle, and it always felt like I was coming up with the short end of the stick in all four areas. I haven't resolved that conflict, but my time in DC has kind of been a "moratorium" on the war that was being waged....i finally have enough time to minister to non-Christians, and time to spend alone with God. And although I'm not deeply involved in a fellowship here, that's okay because I don't think it's the right time or place for me to do that. I've decided; you can't have both. You either need to be in the Christian world, and *reach out* in the periphery to your non-Christian friends and minister to them. Or be in the secular world, and *reach out* to the Christian world for support. Either way, you can't belong in both and still be effective. You must choose. So I've decided that in DC, I am in the secular world and God has called me to minister and plant seeds in a lot of people. I hope that I haven't disappointed.